One Last Option

There is one more option left for Brad and I to think about. We can adopt donor eggs to try to get pregnant. Do I want to do this? Right now, no. Will I ever want to do it? May be. We will talk about it. The process of getting donor eggs doesn't seem to be too complicated but it can be a lengthy process.

So for now, please continue to pray for us as we continue to make decisions.

God has blessed us with a beautiful little girl that we wouldn't trade for the world. If this is our only gift of a child, then we shall continue to love, nurture and spoil her until she decides to move out and become a woman of her own. And then she will be our friend. We have so much to look forward to.

Follow up with doctor

Tomorrow Brad and I plan to meet with the doctor to discuss past attempts to become pregnant and see what his opinion is about future attempts. At this moment I'm ready to quit, but I'd like to see if he has any other options for us. I will post after our appointment.

Good News Comes to an End

My progestrone level was high due to the medication I was on. Unfortunately over the weekend I started my cycle, which is a positive for NOT being pregnant. Brad and I have an appt to follow up with Dr. Jarrett on the 16th. It's difficult to understand why this has happened but I'm at peace with the fact that I will never have another child.

We are looking at other options. Adoptions sounds really appealing to me. There are so many children needing mommy and daddy's who will love them unconditionally and I'm ready to share my love. I am hoping to get a referral to an agency so that we can start looking into it. I've read a general overview of what needs to happen but we need a reliable agency to help us.

I plan to post the appointment on the 16th but after that I will switch the name from IVF journal to possibly an adoption journal. We will see.

Don't Know What to Think

This AM I had a blood test done. It is a test that checks the progestrone level. My level was 22.7, almost double where they like to see it. What does this mean? Well, it means that I had an egg that was available for fertilization. It doesn't mean that I'm pregnant. I will have a pregnancy test done next Monday. We will definitely find out then. The good news is that since my progestrone level is 22.7, my uterus lining is capable of carrying a baby.

What are my thoughts? I don't quite know. I had decided that I was ok with not being pregnant and now all of a sudden it's possible I am. I was ready to give up on trying. I was ready to go forward with other options. I guess some people are surprised when they find out they are pregnant, I will fall in that category if it happens.

Unexpected Turn

Dr. Jarrett decided that we would go forward. His plan: insemination. IVF wouldn't be worth the chance because I only had one egg and the chance of it surviving retrieval and fertilzing would be zero. I was instructed to take ganirelex Friday night and Saturday morning. Saturday morning I got up at dawn and was at the clinic by 7:10 a.m. I had an ultrasound done and blood work. Still only one egg. After my appt I went home awaiting word on what next. While trying to have a normal morning with my family it came to mind that I took the wrong drug. Instead of the ganirelex I took the ovrideal. That throw me in a frinzy. I called Linda and she called the doctor right away. He said that was ok since we only had one egg but insemination was going to have to happen on Sunday. Ganirelex is the drug that stops eggs from dropping, ovrideal is the drug that makes them drop. So it could have been really bad if I had 10 eggs but with just one it wasn't such a big deal.

On Sunday Brad and I got up at 7:00 a.m. and then took Lauren to Bill and Rita's. We got to Carle around 9ish. They did the preparation and at 10:00 the insemination took place. I will have blood drawn on Monday the 31st. That test will tell us if an egg was fertilized. On Monday the 7th I will have a pregnancy test done.

I really feel like this is it. If pregnancy doesn't happen I think I'm stopping. It's possible that I will want to retry again sometime down the road but right now, I'm done!

Discouraging News

I have one follicle that has matured. My lining has dropped to 4.7. I don't quite know what the doctor will think when he gets the results today. However, I've decided that it's not worth taking the chance of going through a retrieval so it won't be happening on Monday. I honestly don't even think I will take another chance at all. This process has been difficult for me and I don't know if I can face another failure. It hurts too bad right now.

Results and Protocol

Blood levels were good. I am to continue taking shots thru Friday morning. I have an appt on Friday at 8:15 for a recheck of follicles and lining.

Appointment

Had an ultrasound and blood taken this AM. I have 7 follicles on the right and 2 on the left. My lining is 5.4. At this moment everything looks good. Linda is going to call me this afternoon to let me know the next medication protocol and when I need to go back for a recheck. I will probably go back on Saturday for an ultrasound then Monday to Indy. That would mean Thursday would be the transfer day. :-)